im not speaking for everyone in this post, so PLEASE dont all start complaining about everything im about to say, ok?? this is just ME speaking, no one else...of course, if anyone else feels the same way, i would encourage you to make your opinion known...we should all have the freedom to express our feelings on matters that directly involve ourselves...just thought i'd put that out in the open so you'd all know that this won't be an exceptionally pleasant post...i'll try to do one of those next, since i haven't really been posting anything pleasant for the past 6 months or so...
first of all, i want to point out that i have gotten very few straight answers about anything in the past few weeks, so if anything i may reference about any of the mission trips i've been on or will go on is false, it's because i was never given a real answer and had to do my own research to find even the smallest bit of information on the subjects...im saying that because i dont want people coming up to me later and telling me that they told me something different from what they actually said...i have a good memory for these types of things, so dont try to feed me lies because i can tell when people are lying quite easily...
now, i'd like to start my rant by reminding you all of the children in Canadatown...you cant honestly tell me you've never gotten attached to at least one of them!! we all know that some of those kids aren't as close as others to coming to know Jesus Christ, so our work is hardly done there...in my opinion, it never will be!! as long as the people up there keep having children, there will always be someone to teach the gospel to!! this is why i don't think it's right that we never even got a chance to say goodbye to all of them...most of them were still under the impression that we were going up there this year until very recently!! and as attached as we've gotten to them, they've gotten just as equally attached...it just doesn't seem right to me to just stop going up to Canadatown without any explanations!! sure, some people are carrying on the tradition and doing the VBS thing without the help our our youth group, but it still seems wrong for us to not at least say goodbye...i am fully planning on going to Canadatown at my own expense next year with or without the church to at least explain why we never showed up this year, but it would help if i had a bit of a following...phil and jimma and everyone are fun, but they can't really accurately relate to the younger kids on their level, you know?? how does a 20-something-year-old relate to a 3rd grader?? i think that it would be great to carry on the tradition as a youth group, but if that's impossible, i'll gladly go alone or with a few people and stay in a hotel, just to say goodbye...i hate open-ended relationships with people...i HATE losing touch because of something that is beyond my control!! ive done it too many times to willingly sit back and watch it happen again!! i will gladly do all the planning and find adults who are willing to supervise if it means we can say proper goodbyes...i know planning probably has a lot to do with the change in mission location this year anyway!! i mean, lets face it!! our youth leaders arent exactly the best at planning ahead!! we started this years fundraisers TWO WEEKS BEFORE THE TRIP for goodness sake!! there was a reason we've always started in February before, you know!! but yeah if anyone is interested on hearing more or helping plan for that trip (YOU MUST COMMIT TO PLANNING!! DO NOT JUST GIVE UP BECAUSE YOU LOST INTEREST!!) then you should definitely let me know...i know how long it takes to plan these kinds of things, and we wouldn't want to wait until the last minute and have everyone pay for gas out of their own pockets or anything...
now, about this year's trip...it sounds like fun, and it would be a great opportunity if there weren't so many distracting problems with it...first of all, and i know this really shouldn't be THAT big of a deal but somehow it is in my mind, the dorms are basically one big room with 3 bunk beds and one bathroom...i actually had to do research to figure that out since i was only given half of the information...as it turns out, there is ONE shower, ONE sink, and ONE toilet for FIVE girls...if it were guys, that might work, but we had about that many girls in the Canadatown dorms, and it got crowded with THREE toilets, showers, and sinks!! and its not like everyone can just take showers at night, because everyone would have to stay up and wait for their turn in the bathroom while the people who take showers in the morning are trying to sleep!! trust me, i NEED that sleep if people expect me to be enjoyable to be around, ok?? im about 3 seconds away from coming up with some kind of bathroom schedule just to try to calm down the rush of people who will be in the bathrooms in the mornings!! in my research i found that there was an option to get 2-3 person rooms, each with their own bathrooms for about $26 extra per person...i mean, really?? why wouldn't we be able to pay that if we'd started fundraisers earlier??!! it seems like a lot less stress on our parts if you ask me...
continuing with the subject of this year's trip, i want to comment on the whole "Sports" element of it...has anyone else realized that approximately 3.5 hours a day and 15 hours of the entire week will be spent playing sports, while only 6 hours of the week will be spent on lunch, crafts, and Bible Study??!! i assumed that a mission trip was supposed to be mainly about GOD and the BIBLE, not sports!! yeah, i get that kids need to exercise, but aren't their spiritual needs a bit more important than their physical needs?? we could have at least done something like Drama, where we could have acted out Bible scenes and such...at least they would be learning!! i just wish that more effort had been made to try and find out what our group would have preferred doing...i mean, i cant be the only one who's not at all fond of sports!! of course, if i bring it up to anyone higher up on the youth leadership ladder, they'll insist that they DID ask, but if they ever did, it was in passing or was put off until the end of wednesday night bible study, when everyone is itching to leave and it never had a chance of being discussed!! we should have had a meeting at some point so that the youth could have been part of the mission planning process, because im sure im not the only one with strong opinions in the group!! we could have sat down and listed the pros and cons of every possible area of missions work, and came up with one that we could all agree on, because if there had been a meeting, i DEFINITELY would not have supported the sports camp idea!! i just don't see how it ties in with the general conception of missions work!! i'm all for fun and games, but there has to be a time to be serious too, and i DONT think 1/3 of an hour and a half is enough time to truly focus on God with these kids!!
finally, id like to touch on another insignificant detail in this year's trip...in the packet given to us explaining the rules of the MissionLab, we were given lists of places to eat and things to do in New Orleans, but lets be honest!! WHEN are we ever going to be allowed to do any of it??!! sure, we have 3 hours of free time 3 times a week, but we also need a chaperon to go with us, so unless we can find an adult who won't mind going on a swamp tour at 7pm (i dont even know what time they stop the tours!!) or to the mall with a bunch of tweenage and teenage girls, i DONT think any of that is going to happen...so why give us a list of stuff we can't do?? i just thought it was a bit unnecessary...
so yeah i hope i've gotten my message across!! i just don't want the opinions of the youth to take a backseat to the preferences of the youth leaders...we are the youth, so we should have a voice in the decisions made about what the youth is expected to do!! im sure if we all really want to do something, we could work hard and make it a reality...if we made committees for planning and fundraising, we might be able to realize some of the ideas we've had in the past for fun things to do with the youth...and once the regular youth start getting involved, others are bound to follow!! no one wants to be a part of a group that never takes into account the thoughts of its members, so no one is actively participating in anything we're doing (which is, in my opinion, a whole lot of nothing!!)...i would be glad to have a larger part in the goings-ons of the youth group, but until we actually HAVE a youth group (and by that i mean a group of youth who want to participate and give their opinions), that can never happen!! its sad, but its true...unless we want a youth group consisting of 3-5 regulars who really arent so regular when you think about it, we need to start listening to ideas and ACTING on them!! i have plenty of low-to-no-cost ideas that i could give, but i want them to be taken seriously, and not just heard, then dismissed!!
like i said before, im gonna try to post some more pleasant things later on, so dont let this post depress you TOO much...until next time, im signing off
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Grr...My Frustrations
ok, if you dont want to read a really long post about everything thats been irritating me over the past few weeks, skip this post...if you really want to read it, go ahead, but im going to warn you right now that youve probably done something mentioned in this post before, and youre not gonna like what i have to say about it...im feeling extremely opinionated today, and i do NOT need people crying over the fact that ive been mad at them at some point...and before anyone asks, NO THIS IS NOT ANOTHER MEGAN POST!! im dealing with that in a different way now, so these frustrations are simply things that ive noticed about people in general and how theyve irked me...so lets begin, shall we??
1. why do people need to be told not to do something more than once?? i honestly dont get it!! its not like it requires any physical effort!! its not like im telling them to DO something!! if youre running, and i tell you to stop, shouldnt it be a relief to stop running?? its not like im telling you to run...does that make any sense?? its just that it shouldnt take any effort to stop doing something that doesnt need to be done...i mean, if it's something like smoking, sure, i can see how it might be hard to stop because the nicotine in the cigarettes is addictive, but if im telling you to stop observing me and reporting everything i say and/or do to my parents, shouldnt it be easy to stop?? i mean, sometimes i get mad about something, and i feel that i should share the fact that im mad with the facebook community so they dont accidentally cross my path at the wrong time, causing me to lash out uneccessarily at them...does that give them a right to ask about it?? i mean, its my problem, right?? no theirs?? so why in the heck do people ask??!! its not your problem!! dont worry yourself with it!! i understand that some people LIKE to know whats going on in peoples lives so they can "help" them, but i dont want people trying to "help" me!! the only person who can get through MY problems is ME...if im mad at snakes, what are you gonna do?? kill them all?? good luck!! i just dont want people butting into my life...i post those statuses for YOUR SAKE!! so you DONT get me more fired up than i already am!! thats why i write that i dont want you asking about it!! im not "being mean" ok?? im WARNING you!! wouldnt you want to KNOW if i was about to blow up at anyone who annoyed me with their trivial nonsense and wannabe psychoanalytical garbage??!! im not trying to be mean, but when im ticked off about something, i dont really want to hear your hypotheses...more than that, i dont really CARE what your opinions are!! it sounds rude, but it's the truth!! you have no idea what im going through in my life, and i dont know whats happening in yours, so lets just keep it that way!! and i REALLY dont need people alerting my parents whenever i get mad over a stubbed toe and decide to write about it on facebook, ok?? they dont need to know EVERY DETAIL OF MY LIFE!! they should KNOW that im not writing anything on there that i wouldnt say out loud in their presence!! i never say ANYTHING online that i wouldnt say to someones face if i had the chance!! spying on my statuses is NOT ok with me, and i dont know anyone who WOULD be ok with that!! its not that i dont want people reading them, its just that people dont need to take EVERYTHING so seriously!! its like saying that i hate steak is an insult to whoever i say it to!! if you think telling my parents that im mad isnt gonna bother me, you have some serious issues to work out, because no one on the planet wants people reporting everything they do to someone else...if youre insulted by whatever i say, thats your problem, ok?? i dont say things to personally attack people, i say them because they need to be said!! i would hate for people to go on in life thinking that they were model Christians when they didnt even have the decency to think about whether or not someone would be bothered by someone spying on them...im pretty sure the "model Christian" shouldnt be spying on people in the first place!! if it's none of your business, then butt out!!
2. why do people think that all Christian music needs to contain the words Jesus, God, savior, messiah, etc.?? isn't Christian music defined as any music that is written with Christian morals?? isn't there a difference between singing ABOUT God and FOR God?? i mean, even secular artists can sing ABOUT God!! they can sing about how much they think He sucks, but aren't they still singing ABOUT Him?? i think that Christian music should be anything that is being written or performed in order to praise Him!! who CARES if the song is just about something random like dancing??!! if the band consists of CHRISTIAN ARTISTS with CHRISTIAN MORALS, shouldn't they be considered to be CHRISTIANS?? take Hawk Nelson, for example...i absolutely HATE it when people say they're not Christian because not every one of their songs is about God...have you ever met them?? do you know what their morals are?? if i were to ask you to name one song of theirs that was offensive to Christians, could you?? i certainly couldnt!! who are you to judge the faith of four guys who just want to perform their music in the name of Jesus?? in fact, im almost positive that its a SIN to doubt the faith of another!! am i right?? its not like theyre doing anything WRONG!! theyre just singing!! since when is it wrong to sing about dancing??!! just because every line doesnt say "Jesus is my savior," that does NOT mean theyre not Christian!! just because the music has a beat and its not some 200 year old hymn, that doesnt mean its BAD!! i just think that people need to stop doubting the faith of most Christian bands!!
3. does anyone really know what the word "random" means?? to be random is to be without definite aim, purpose, or method...so why do people apply the word to themselves for no apparent reason?? the most predictable people are always saying that they're random, even when they've never done anything even remotely random...for a person to be considered random, you would think they would have some kind of habit of blurting out completely unrelated thoughts or something, right?? i just don't understand why everyone calls themselves random!! if everyone really were random, normal conversations would be practically nonexistent, wouldn't they?? it just seems like everyone always starts their "about me" sections on their profiles on various websites with something along the lines of "so yeah, i'm pretty random!!" without really explaining how they came to such a conclusion...
CORN!!
see, THAT is random...it came from nowhere, and was therefore devoid of aim, purpose, and/or method...how is commenting on something after its already been brought up in conversation being random?? cuz thats basically what people consider to be random...just throwing that out there
4. why do people always comment on how they have like "# whole items" or whatever?? are they implying that everyone else has parts of the items?? like commercials are always boasting how you can get "2 whole DVD's for only $19.95!!"...how are they gonna send you half a DVD?? OF COURSE THEY'RE WHOLE!! cant they just say "2 DVD's"?? i couldnt tell you why, but it irritates me SO MUCH!!
5. just thought i'd let everyone know that megan's boyfriend, yamire, is a jerk...i hope she tells him i said that, too...
6. i really dont like the movers who've been here since monday...they packed up all the shoes...i needed those shoes for the mission trip...i was forced to buy a new pair...they also left a bunch of stuff near my bed unpacked, even though it all followed the guidelines of what they were able to pack...i was mad...oh, and they blocked off every entrance to every room before they left, making it impossible to roam around the house...i hate moving with a passion...i will be something close to relieved when the dumb moving truck gets here on thursday...even though im gonna lose my bed, at least i wont have to deal with them ever again and all these dumb boxes will be gone!! i cant believe i even survived 2 days!! if it werent for Breaking Dawn, i probably would've died of boredom!!
7. WHY do people constantly ask me if im still going on the mission trip this summer?? havent i been SAYING i was going since last year?? also, why would i have shown up to the car wash on saturday with only a day's notice and openly expressed my less-than-thrilled attitude toward being there in the heat that early in the morning if i wasnt determined to go on this trip??!! YES its true that i cant go if we dont earn the money, but thats the only thing that might hinder my decision...what bugs me most is that the same people ask me like 50 times each, many of which are in the same day!! like ive really changed my mind in the past 10 minutes!! wouldnt it be easier to ask like once every 2 months up until the trip, and then once like 2 weeks from the trip?? i just find it unecessary to ask every day!! of course, the bigger concern is why are we JUST NOW starting fundraisers like 2 weeks before the trip??!! theres a reason we've always started in february in years past, you know!! i just think its a bit of a sign that you're unprepared when you start planning something you've known about for months 2 weeks before it happens...i stand by what i said saturday about not paying for a trip that i cant go on because of the price...its irrational, and if the lack of planning is the cause of my not being able to go, i dont think i should HAVE to pay for it...maybe thats just my opinion, but i know of at least 3 or 4 people who agree with it...
so yeah, those are pretty much my biggest irritations at the moment...so now you know that when i seem a bit snarky, its nothing personal...im just really frustrated by something that whatever you said probably reminded me of, ok?? so when my facebook status or whatever says that im mad, DONT INVOLVE YOURSELF AND YOU WONT GET YOUR FRAGILE, SENSITIVE LITTLE FEELINGS HURT!! keep in mind that im rarely ruffled by anyones sarcastic or insensitive comments, so i dont understand what you people freak out about whenever i use said comments...if you have a problem with the way i speak to you, no offense is ever intended; i just think of whatever would offend me, and i dont say that stuff...i cant think of everything that might offend someone because, lets face it, some people are just irrationally sensitive about the smallest, most inconsequential things!! ive dealt with overly sensitive people before, and i try to avoid them like the plague now, so if you happen to be one of them, it would be best if you would just not say anything to me when my status says that im angry because i WILL snap at you...its in my nature to stay angry when im angry, and i need to be by myself to calm down because people irritate me the most when im already irritated...so PLEASE take this entry as a hint and leave me alone when i seem even the slightest bit miffed (you can tell by the clenching of my jaw, the glaring murderously at everything in sight [yes thats a Midnight Sun quote], or the snarky/sarcastic tone of my voice) and approach me only when im showing signs of possible friendliness (unemotional face or slight smile, eyes open wide or closed completely, or staring off into space thoughtfully)...keep in mind that just because im quiet, that doesnt mean im mad, but you should probably look for the other signs just in case...
now that thats off my chest, im signing off...ill try to post more often, but the most eventful thing happening in my life presently is my aggravation with the movers so yeah...bye
1. why do people need to be told not to do something more than once?? i honestly dont get it!! its not like it requires any physical effort!! its not like im telling them to DO something!! if youre running, and i tell you to stop, shouldnt it be a relief to stop running?? its not like im telling you to run...does that make any sense?? its just that it shouldnt take any effort to stop doing something that doesnt need to be done...i mean, if it's something like smoking, sure, i can see how it might be hard to stop because the nicotine in the cigarettes is addictive, but if im telling you to stop observing me and reporting everything i say and/or do to my parents, shouldnt it be easy to stop?? i mean, sometimes i get mad about something, and i feel that i should share the fact that im mad with the facebook community so they dont accidentally cross my path at the wrong time, causing me to lash out uneccessarily at them...does that give them a right to ask about it?? i mean, its my problem, right?? no theirs?? so why in the heck do people ask??!! its not your problem!! dont worry yourself with it!! i understand that some people LIKE to know whats going on in peoples lives so they can "help" them, but i dont want people trying to "help" me!! the only person who can get through MY problems is ME...if im mad at snakes, what are you gonna do?? kill them all?? good luck!! i just dont want people butting into my life...i post those statuses for YOUR SAKE!! so you DONT get me more fired up than i already am!! thats why i write that i dont want you asking about it!! im not "being mean" ok?? im WARNING you!! wouldnt you want to KNOW if i was about to blow up at anyone who annoyed me with their trivial nonsense and wannabe psychoanalytical garbage??!! im not trying to be mean, but when im ticked off about something, i dont really want to hear your hypotheses...more than that, i dont really CARE what your opinions are!! it sounds rude, but it's the truth!! you have no idea what im going through in my life, and i dont know whats happening in yours, so lets just keep it that way!! and i REALLY dont need people alerting my parents whenever i get mad over a stubbed toe and decide to write about it on facebook, ok?? they dont need to know EVERY DETAIL OF MY LIFE!! they should KNOW that im not writing anything on there that i wouldnt say out loud in their presence!! i never say ANYTHING online that i wouldnt say to someones face if i had the chance!! spying on my statuses is NOT ok with me, and i dont know anyone who WOULD be ok with that!! its not that i dont want people reading them, its just that people dont need to take EVERYTHING so seriously!! its like saying that i hate steak is an insult to whoever i say it to!! if you think telling my parents that im mad isnt gonna bother me, you have some serious issues to work out, because no one on the planet wants people reporting everything they do to someone else...if youre insulted by whatever i say, thats your problem, ok?? i dont say things to personally attack people, i say them because they need to be said!! i would hate for people to go on in life thinking that they were model Christians when they didnt even have the decency to think about whether or not someone would be bothered by someone spying on them...im pretty sure the "model Christian" shouldnt be spying on people in the first place!! if it's none of your business, then butt out!!
2. why do people think that all Christian music needs to contain the words Jesus, God, savior, messiah, etc.?? isn't Christian music defined as any music that is written with Christian morals?? isn't there a difference between singing ABOUT God and FOR God?? i mean, even secular artists can sing ABOUT God!! they can sing about how much they think He sucks, but aren't they still singing ABOUT Him?? i think that Christian music should be anything that is being written or performed in order to praise Him!! who CARES if the song is just about something random like dancing??!! if the band consists of CHRISTIAN ARTISTS with CHRISTIAN MORALS, shouldn't they be considered to be CHRISTIANS?? take Hawk Nelson, for example...i absolutely HATE it when people say they're not Christian because not every one of their songs is about God...have you ever met them?? do you know what their morals are?? if i were to ask you to name one song of theirs that was offensive to Christians, could you?? i certainly couldnt!! who are you to judge the faith of four guys who just want to perform their music in the name of Jesus?? in fact, im almost positive that its a SIN to doubt the faith of another!! am i right?? its not like theyre doing anything WRONG!! theyre just singing!! since when is it wrong to sing about dancing??!! just because every line doesnt say "Jesus is my savior," that does NOT mean theyre not Christian!! just because the music has a beat and its not some 200 year old hymn, that doesnt mean its BAD!! i just think that people need to stop doubting the faith of most Christian bands!!
3. does anyone really know what the word "random" means?? to be random is to be without definite aim, purpose, or method...so why do people apply the word to themselves for no apparent reason?? the most predictable people are always saying that they're random, even when they've never done anything even remotely random...for a person to be considered random, you would think they would have some kind of habit of blurting out completely unrelated thoughts or something, right?? i just don't understand why everyone calls themselves random!! if everyone really were random, normal conversations would be practically nonexistent, wouldn't they?? it just seems like everyone always starts their "about me" sections on their profiles on various websites with something along the lines of "so yeah, i'm pretty random!!" without really explaining how they came to such a conclusion...
CORN!!
see, THAT is random...it came from nowhere, and was therefore devoid of aim, purpose, and/or method...how is commenting on something after its already been brought up in conversation being random?? cuz thats basically what people consider to be random...just throwing that out there
4. why do people always comment on how they have like "# whole items" or whatever?? are they implying that everyone else has parts of the items?? like commercials are always boasting how you can get "2 whole DVD's for only $19.95!!"...how are they gonna send you half a DVD?? OF COURSE THEY'RE WHOLE!! cant they just say "2 DVD's"?? i couldnt tell you why, but it irritates me SO MUCH!!
5. just thought i'd let everyone know that megan's boyfriend, yamire, is a jerk...i hope she tells him i said that, too...
6. i really dont like the movers who've been here since monday...they packed up all the shoes...i needed those shoes for the mission trip...i was forced to buy a new pair...they also left a bunch of stuff near my bed unpacked, even though it all followed the guidelines of what they were able to pack...i was mad...oh, and they blocked off every entrance to every room before they left, making it impossible to roam around the house...i hate moving with a passion...i will be something close to relieved when the dumb moving truck gets here on thursday...even though im gonna lose my bed, at least i wont have to deal with them ever again and all these dumb boxes will be gone!! i cant believe i even survived 2 days!! if it werent for Breaking Dawn, i probably would've died of boredom!!
7. WHY do people constantly ask me if im still going on the mission trip this summer?? havent i been SAYING i was going since last year?? also, why would i have shown up to the car wash on saturday with only a day's notice and openly expressed my less-than-thrilled attitude toward being there in the heat that early in the morning if i wasnt determined to go on this trip??!! YES its true that i cant go if we dont earn the money, but thats the only thing that might hinder my decision...what bugs me most is that the same people ask me like 50 times each, many of which are in the same day!! like ive really changed my mind in the past 10 minutes!! wouldnt it be easier to ask like once every 2 months up until the trip, and then once like 2 weeks from the trip?? i just find it unecessary to ask every day!! of course, the bigger concern is why are we JUST NOW starting fundraisers like 2 weeks before the trip??!! theres a reason we've always started in february in years past, you know!! i just think its a bit of a sign that you're unprepared when you start planning something you've known about for months 2 weeks before it happens...i stand by what i said saturday about not paying for a trip that i cant go on because of the price...its irrational, and if the lack of planning is the cause of my not being able to go, i dont think i should HAVE to pay for it...maybe thats just my opinion, but i know of at least 3 or 4 people who agree with it...
so yeah, those are pretty much my biggest irritations at the moment...so now you know that when i seem a bit snarky, its nothing personal...im just really frustrated by something that whatever you said probably reminded me of, ok?? so when my facebook status or whatever says that im mad, DONT INVOLVE YOURSELF AND YOU WONT GET YOUR FRAGILE, SENSITIVE LITTLE FEELINGS HURT!! keep in mind that im rarely ruffled by anyones sarcastic or insensitive comments, so i dont understand what you people freak out about whenever i use said comments...if you have a problem with the way i speak to you, no offense is ever intended; i just think of whatever would offend me, and i dont say that stuff...i cant think of everything that might offend someone because, lets face it, some people are just irrationally sensitive about the smallest, most inconsequential things!! ive dealt with overly sensitive people before, and i try to avoid them like the plague now, so if you happen to be one of them, it would be best if you would just not say anything to me when my status says that im angry because i WILL snap at you...its in my nature to stay angry when im angry, and i need to be by myself to calm down because people irritate me the most when im already irritated...so PLEASE take this entry as a hint and leave me alone when i seem even the slightest bit miffed (you can tell by the clenching of my jaw, the glaring murderously at everything in sight [yes thats a Midnight Sun quote], or the snarky/sarcastic tone of my voice) and approach me only when im showing signs of possible friendliness (unemotional face or slight smile, eyes open wide or closed completely, or staring off into space thoughtfully)...keep in mind that just because im quiet, that doesnt mean im mad, but you should probably look for the other signs just in case...
now that thats off my chest, im signing off...ill try to post more often, but the most eventful thing happening in my life presently is my aggravation with the movers so yeah...bye
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Different or Dead??
ok so ive said in multiple past posts that ive finally given up on the whole megan situation, but i promise its legit this time!! i just thought i should get some of the last bits of anger off my chest...so ive been trying out some new life philosophies lately, and ive found a few that i like...for example, i try not to regret anything (so far i dont), and i try not to be a hypocrite (not many problems there either, but to say there were none would be hypocrisy)...however, the whole "forgive and forget" thing?? SO not working for me...like, at all!! as much as i try to forgive megan for everything shes put me through, i cant...i mean, its not something stupid like going to escambia instead of west florida this time (we had a pretty heated arguement about that one...not pretty...)!! shes basically saying that she doesnt care about God anymore and thats UNACCEPTABLE and INEXCUSABLE!! i mean, HE GAVE YOU LIFE!! and the LEAST you can do is show up to church and listen for an hour every sunday, but she cant even do THAT!! even HYPOCRITES manage to do at least that!! shes not even TRYING anymore!! see, i can read her a lot better than she thinks i can...i know her well enough to be able to tell basically what shes thinking most of the time, and i could tell she was getting a bit distant after last year's mission trip...ANYONE could tell THAT!! but when everyone else seemed to have let it go, we were two of the small few who held onto our anger...as time passed, so did the vast majority of my frustration with the leaders of our youth...but megan didnt let it go...the whole "K-Town Fiasco" had turned her off to the whole idea of going to church and being led by men who had slandered 4 youth and 3 older men, one of the youth being her own brother...i understood that she wouldnt want to be a part of that, but i figured she would get over it...of course, when she didnt get over it, i was a bit worried...she stopped coming to church, first on wednesdays because of band practice...later, AFTER band practices on wednesdays were done, she still didnt come, which alerted me to the fact that she may just be avoiding the youth group as a whole...then, she stopped coming sundays unless she had nursery...eventually, she was taken off the nursery list and no one ever saw her at church...of course, i was still talking to her a bit outside of church, bugging her about not going, even though i knew it would help...our phone calls got shorter and less frequent, until all we did was text occasionally, mostly on sunday mornings when i bugged her about coming to church...i knew she was avoiding the subject because as soon as i confronted her with anything she would stop replying to my texts, knowing i would send more texts badgering her to answer, because ive never really been one to do that kind of thing...also, i had picked up on the fact that she may have started using not-so-Christian language behind my back...it was the way she hesitated before saying some things and looked at me everytime a curse word popped up in a song we may have been listening to, leading me to believe that she may have almost (or accidentally) slipped and said it when i wasnt looking...i even got a controversial text from her where a certain letter in a certain acronym supposedly did not stand for the word that i knew it stood for based on prior knowledge of the acronym...either way, she was hiding something from me...of course, we all know how well megan hides things from me...i DID figure out that she was my secret partner AND what she got me last summer during the mission trip...so when i finally had had enough and blew up at her, what does she do?? SHE calls ME a liar!! she gets mad because i told the truth!! shes read most of my blog entries about her, and shes gotten mad at every one of them...even though they are basically redundant in that there isnt any new information in any of them...they're all pretty much wordier versions of the text i sent her in february blowing up at her...
so the real reason for this post is NOT to retell my story for the umpteenth time...actually, its to finally reveal the TRUE outcome of my ordeal...while everyone keeps asking me how we're not friends anymore since we were so close and why she doesnt come to church anymore, i find it bewildering that nobody knows the answer already...then, i realize that no one else knows my real stance on the subject...see, to you guys, megan is the same person, just a bit different...
well, i have other views...see, to me, she hasnt changed!! to me, shes dead...
the old megan that i used to hang out with and who used to finish my sentences (and vice versa) is dead, and some freaky new girl has taken her place...someone who has completely different views from my megan and who doesnt even know i exist...someone who ive never met, and who i dont intent to meet anytime in the near future...someone who has no idea how idiotic shes being because she's never known any other way of life...
thats why i dont simply say "oh megans just not here today" or "megan and i are fighting"...no, i say that we shouldnt expect her back and that shes gone completely, because like i said, shes dead to me...its like she doesnt even exist anymore...and yeah, it hurts to think of my best friend as dead, but it would hurt even more to know that shes still there, but she just doesnt care anymore...so please respect my mourning and dont bring her up too often...its not everyday that your best friend dies, ok?? so show some respect...
also, i never really knew exactly how much i depended on having someone there to do stupid stuff with and talk until 5am about nothing...i never knew how much i depended on having someone there who understood the inner workings of my mind to think along the same lines as me and stop me before i acted on any of the dumber things...how much i depended on not being by myself all day every day...i cant stand being around people unless i have someone else just like me to converse with...i cant be my usual bubbly self because its no fun unless theres someone there to laugh at how excited i get over everything...i cant go to any concerts because making those kinds of memories with other people seems wrong since they could erase all my older memories...i cant do any crazy stuff without someone there to hold the camera while i talk stupidly into it...i cant listen to certain music because its no fun without someone else there to dance to it and mess up the lyrics...i cant even THINK about where ill go to school if i have to come back down here for my last semester of school...its even hard to write in this blog because of its origins and the fact that i only have (had) 1 regular viewer...
i want so much to be able to say sorry and get on with my life, but i honestly believe that i have nothing to say sorry for, and that even if i did, theres no one to say sorry to...there isnt even a headstone i can talk to because shes only dead to me...its like the whole chunk of my life that included megan has just disappeared and ive been in a coma and now i have to adjust to life again since ive been asleep so long...
i want so much to forgive her, but i cant...i cant forgive anyone for giving up on God, of all things...she didnt even come for me, which adds insult to injury...its sad because we started out the same...we were saved around the same time, we were baptised within 5 minutes of each other, we both went to sunday school and church on both sundays and wednesdays...we used to have discussions at 3am about certain passages in the bible and how they related to us...we would read passages out loud over the phone...we both went on the mission trip twice, and we worked in the same grade both times...after the first time, we were inseparable...we did everything together...we grew in Christ together, but somehow she slipped away before we were done growing...we were almost exactly the same in terms of lifestyles outside of school...but she was the first to fall off the wagon...
i dont know how the idea ever got into my head, but i guess i was always under the impression that if a problem was meant to be solved, it would resolve itself...i was wrong...shes still dead, and im still angry...she hasnt even tried to apologize, and i have yet to succeed in forgiving her...how can i not be able to forgive the person who planned out her whole wedding to nick jonas and even promised to let me be the maid of honor??
i know its horrible to hold grudges against dead people, but i cant help it...im so angry at her for everything, and im angry at myself for not being able to get over it...
if, somewhere down the road, we end up friends again, i hope she reads this and knows what she put me through, and i hope that she regrets it and sees how stupid it was...
if you read this, yeah im still mad...but an apology would help...
so the real reason for this post is NOT to retell my story for the umpteenth time...actually, its to finally reveal the TRUE outcome of my ordeal...while everyone keeps asking me how we're not friends anymore since we were so close and why she doesnt come to church anymore, i find it bewildering that nobody knows the answer already...then, i realize that no one else knows my real stance on the subject...see, to you guys, megan is the same person, just a bit different...
well, i have other views...see, to me, she hasnt changed!! to me, shes dead...
the old megan that i used to hang out with and who used to finish my sentences (and vice versa) is dead, and some freaky new girl has taken her place...someone who has completely different views from my megan and who doesnt even know i exist...someone who ive never met, and who i dont intent to meet anytime in the near future...someone who has no idea how idiotic shes being because she's never known any other way of life...
thats why i dont simply say "oh megans just not here today" or "megan and i are fighting"...no, i say that we shouldnt expect her back and that shes gone completely, because like i said, shes dead to me...its like she doesnt even exist anymore...and yeah, it hurts to think of my best friend as dead, but it would hurt even more to know that shes still there, but she just doesnt care anymore...so please respect my mourning and dont bring her up too often...its not everyday that your best friend dies, ok?? so show some respect...
also, i never really knew exactly how much i depended on having someone there to do stupid stuff with and talk until 5am about nothing...i never knew how much i depended on having someone there who understood the inner workings of my mind to think along the same lines as me and stop me before i acted on any of the dumber things...how much i depended on not being by myself all day every day...i cant stand being around people unless i have someone else just like me to converse with...i cant be my usual bubbly self because its no fun unless theres someone there to laugh at how excited i get over everything...i cant go to any concerts because making those kinds of memories with other people seems wrong since they could erase all my older memories...i cant do any crazy stuff without someone there to hold the camera while i talk stupidly into it...i cant listen to certain music because its no fun without someone else there to dance to it and mess up the lyrics...i cant even THINK about where ill go to school if i have to come back down here for my last semester of school...its even hard to write in this blog because of its origins and the fact that i only have (had) 1 regular viewer...
i want so much to be able to say sorry and get on with my life, but i honestly believe that i have nothing to say sorry for, and that even if i did, theres no one to say sorry to...there isnt even a headstone i can talk to because shes only dead to me...its like the whole chunk of my life that included megan has just disappeared and ive been in a coma and now i have to adjust to life again since ive been asleep so long...
i want so much to forgive her, but i cant...i cant forgive anyone for giving up on God, of all things...she didnt even come for me, which adds insult to injury...its sad because we started out the same...we were saved around the same time, we were baptised within 5 minutes of each other, we both went to sunday school and church on both sundays and wednesdays...we used to have discussions at 3am about certain passages in the bible and how they related to us...we would read passages out loud over the phone...we both went on the mission trip twice, and we worked in the same grade both times...after the first time, we were inseparable...we did everything together...we grew in Christ together, but somehow she slipped away before we were done growing...we were almost exactly the same in terms of lifestyles outside of school...but she was the first to fall off the wagon...
i dont know how the idea ever got into my head, but i guess i was always under the impression that if a problem was meant to be solved, it would resolve itself...i was wrong...shes still dead, and im still angry...she hasnt even tried to apologize, and i have yet to succeed in forgiving her...how can i not be able to forgive the person who planned out her whole wedding to nick jonas and even promised to let me be the maid of honor??
i know its horrible to hold grudges against dead people, but i cant help it...im so angry at her for everything, and im angry at myself for not being able to get over it...
if, somewhere down the road, we end up friends again, i hope she reads this and knows what she put me through, and i hope that she regrets it and sees how stupid it was...
if you read this, yeah im still mad...but an apology would help...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Summer
so its summertime, and i dont know whether i should be happy or sad...it feels great to be doing nothing and know that i dont HAVE to do anything, but its also a bit weird because i keep expecting the vacation to end and ill be back at school...i havent even emptied my bookbag yet because its like i need to make sure im not going back!! its also kinda sad because its my very last year in public schools since ill be homeschooled next year...believe it or not, i (the one who hates school and who has frequently begged to stay home) didnt want to leave on friday...i stayed in the classroom for 20 minutes talking to everyone and thinking about how after i saw past all the work-related stress, the school year had actually been really fun...i almost cried as i walked away for the last time because i knew it was my last day there as a student...i spent another ten minutes walking around campus and taking pictures, but the one i really wanted to take i couldnt take because there were two retards making out right in the way of my shot...im gonna miss it...i cant wait for next year when i get to sneak in during lunches and pep rallies, even if i cant say hi to all my old teachers (i dont want them reporting me after i told them all i was moving...not a smart move...)
so since school let out and ive gotten all (or most) of my tears out of the way, ive been doing basically nothing...i watch movies and listen to music until 4am, then i sleep till 5 or 6pm...its not the most exciting summer break ive ever had, but at least im getting enough sleep...my favorite song right now is "Can't Break Thru" by James Bourne, formerly of Busted...i know its about a relationship, but it kind of fits my life right now...well, one aspect of it anyway...its about how he's given up on a relationship thats been broken and how he wont say he's sorry because he didnt do anything...he talks about how it hurt at first, but now hes "let go in every way"...everyone should listen to it...
Can't Break Thru
isn't it good?? i fell in love with it the first time i heard it, which was like a week ago...sure, theres a not-so-great word in the second verse, but in my mind, i just replace it with yelling
so yeah, i dont know why i even wrote this post because its kind of pointless...all you've learned is that i kind of miss school and that i love a song...how informative!! but yeah...im kinda done because theres nothing else thats even remotely interesting happening in my life right now...bye
so since school let out and ive gotten all (or most) of my tears out of the way, ive been doing basically nothing...i watch movies and listen to music until 4am, then i sleep till 5 or 6pm...its not the most exciting summer break ive ever had, but at least im getting enough sleep...my favorite song right now is "Can't Break Thru" by James Bourne, formerly of Busted...i know its about a relationship, but it kind of fits my life right now...well, one aspect of it anyway...its about how he's given up on a relationship thats been broken and how he wont say he's sorry because he didnt do anything...he talks about how it hurt at first, but now hes "let go in every way"...everyone should listen to it...
Can't Break Thru
isn't it good?? i fell in love with it the first time i heard it, which was like a week ago...sure, theres a not-so-great word in the second verse, but in my mind, i just replace it with yelling
so yeah, i dont know why i even wrote this post because its kind of pointless...all you've learned is that i kind of miss school and that i love a song...how informative!! but yeah...im kinda done because theres nothing else thats even remotely interesting happening in my life right now...bye
Monday, May 18, 2009
Party Update and Latest Poem
ok so about my party...the planning has been going pretty smoothly and according to schedule...i ordered the jack sparrow cutout off of ebay on friday, so it should be here by the end of the month...i went party decoration shopping on saturday and picked up some cool stuff (including a movie camera shaped pinata!!)...invitations went out today, and ive started getting some yeses and maybes, so turnout looks pretty good so far...i have to hand out the rest of the invitations later at church (only the school invitations have gone out)...ive had a few people literally begging for them!! ok...so i MAY have told them they would only get one if they begged, but its basically the same thing, right?? ok maybe not...haha...but yeah, the point is that people wanna go, which means that im doing my job fairly well...now if only i could be put in charge of some youth events, maybe we'd get more than 4 people coming on wednesdays!! but yeah...so invitations are checked off my extensive list of things to do, thankfully!!
as for the poem, i wrote it a few days ago in geometry because, honestly, what else am i supposed to do in that class?? it's called "Broken", a name i stole from the Secondhand Serenade song...i might give the person who guesses my inspiration a piece of candy, so pay close attention!!
Broken, by Stevie Lee
I was empty when I met you
And you made me complete
I should not have given you the power
To cut me so deep
You had my trust completely
But you abused every bit
You threw powerful blows
And ran once you hit
Every blow had a meaning
Like the very first one
You left me for him
Because I was no fun
Does the guy you just met
Mean more to you
Than the best friend who gave you
A place to run to
every time you were hurt??
Do you care anymore??
Are you just going to leave me
Broken on the floor
Calling for help
When there’s no one around
To pick up the pieces
Scattered across the ground??
Was he just that important
That you can throw me away
Like the memories we’d made together
Day after day??
I wish I could tell you
Just how much it hurts
That my best friend in the world
Has become such a jerk
But you refuse to listen
And my pleas are in vain
And im left here broken
Crippled with pain
I really hate to give up
On what I long so much to fix
But I cant seem to reach you
When your skull’s grown so thick
So for now and forever
I guess this is goodbye
But don’t think that as I write this
Im not dying inside
so yeah...guess the inspiration and get candy!! pretty sweet deal, if you ask me...well, im out for now...
as for the poem, i wrote it a few days ago in geometry because, honestly, what else am i supposed to do in that class?? it's called "Broken", a name i stole from the Secondhand Serenade song...i might give the person who guesses my inspiration a piece of candy, so pay close attention!!
Broken, by Stevie Lee
I was empty when I met you
And you made me complete
I should not have given you the power
To cut me so deep
You had my trust completely
But you abused every bit
You threw powerful blows
And ran once you hit
Every blow had a meaning
Like the very first one
You left me for him
Because I was no fun
Does the guy you just met
Mean more to you
Than the best friend who gave you
A place to run to
every time you were hurt??
Do you care anymore??
Are you just going to leave me
Broken on the floor
Calling for help
When there’s no one around
To pick up the pieces
Scattered across the ground??
Was he just that important
That you can throw me away
Like the memories we’d made together
Day after day??
I wish I could tell you
Just how much it hurts
That my best friend in the world
Has become such a jerk
But you refuse to listen
And my pleas are in vain
And im left here broken
Crippled with pain
I really hate to give up
On what I long so much to fix
But I cant seem to reach you
When your skull’s grown so thick
So for now and forever
I guess this is goodbye
But don’t think that as I write this
Im not dying inside
so yeah...guess the inspiration and get candy!! pretty sweet deal, if you ask me...well, im out for now...
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Don't Even Try (also my thoughts on megan)
you wanna know what i think is hilarious?? everyone thinks they have something to hide, and when they try, they think theyre doing a pretty good job of hiding it...well, guess what!! YOURE NOT!! you all must think im either blind or a very unperceptive person because you cant try and hide the obvious from me!! when i say i know everything or that im psychic, im not entirely joking...sure, i may not know every textbook fact or be able to literally read peoples minds, but i can tell a lot about people just by reading their subtle movements or listening to the way they talk...like i can tell if someone has started an old habit and doesnt want me to know about it...cursing, for instance...just the way some people may hesitate before saying some things, no matter how small the hesitation is...or i can sense that someone may not be telling the truth...like if they pass off an illness that is supposedly severe with a wave of their hand, it probably wasnt even half as bad as they want me to believe...
i think that there are definately some things in our lives that we may not neccessarily want other people to know, but if its something stupid like the things i mentioned above, why would it even matter?? if you curse when youre in one place, but pretend not to somewhere else, isnt that pretending to be someone youre not?? isnt that something everyone tries to avoid?? i certainly thought so...
also, im going to clear the air right now about whats going on between megan and i so i dont have to keep answering stupid questions like "why hasnt megan been to church in a while??" or "have you spoken to megan lately??"...NO i have NOT spoken to her lately, NO i am NOT planning on talking to her anytime soon, NO it is NOT because she is busy with band, YES i AM cutting her out of my life, YES it DOES make me feel bad, YES it DOES hurt a bit, YES i DO almost hate her just a bit, YES she IS being a jerk, YES i DO wish i could slap her, YES the fight IS causing me a lot of stress, NO i did NOT think we were going to stop being friends anytime soon, YES i HAVE written many angry poems about her, NO i am NOT going to post them here or anywhere because YES they DO hurt and it DID hurt to have to write them in the first place, NO im NOT going to talk to her about it, YES i HAVE given up on her completely, YES i DO pray for her every night, NO there has NOT been any more improvement, YES she DOES curse now, YES she DOES have a boyfriend, YES she DOES think church, and therefore God, is a waste of ther time, YES i DO miss joking around and being happy all the time, but NO im NOT gonna start again just yet, YES i DO think im taking this seriously, and YES i DO think its the right thing to do, YES it IS sad that we were once such good friends and now i cant stand her, NO i do NOT regret what i said, YES i WAS telling the truth, and YES she DOES need to get over whatever phase shes going through, YES i DID say she wasnt ready for high school, and YES i DID mean it, and YES i still DO mean it, NO i do NOT think it is neccessary for someone to change when starting high school, and YES it IS possible to still be the same person, YES i DO think she is being immature, and YES i DO blame her entirely, YES i COULD try more to help her, and YES i COULD tell her why im so mad at her, but NO i will NOT, YES she DOES deserve this, and NO i will NOT delete any part of this post, NO i do NOT care who reads it either!!
i really wish i could say that i overreacted and be friends with her again, but i just cant because i know its not true...i was thinking about the fight a few days ago and i realized that we may never make up, and i felt really bad, but i accepted it...sure, im not as exciting as i was before, but ive just mellowed out a bit...you cant tell me at least a few people arent just a bit relieved...i regret nothing, its the philosophy that i live by, and so i dont regret telling megan the truth a few weeks back...i dont regret inviting her to my party way back when either, and im going to honor what i said, so she IS still invited, but only because i dont go back on my word without a really good reason, and i dont see the fact that we're fighting to be that good of a reason...she doesnt have to come, and she probably wont, but i dont want people saying that i never tried to help her out, because i did...oh, and she can say she loves her life right now as much as she wants, but i know she has to feel at least a wee bit bad that her former best friend practically hates her (i dont though, because hate is a strong word)...
so yeah, i dont care if she reads this, and i really dont care if anyone else reads it either, but its good to get it off my chest...
i think that there are definately some things in our lives that we may not neccessarily want other people to know, but if its something stupid like the things i mentioned above, why would it even matter?? if you curse when youre in one place, but pretend not to somewhere else, isnt that pretending to be someone youre not?? isnt that something everyone tries to avoid?? i certainly thought so...
also, im going to clear the air right now about whats going on between megan and i so i dont have to keep answering stupid questions like "why hasnt megan been to church in a while??" or "have you spoken to megan lately??"...NO i have NOT spoken to her lately, NO i am NOT planning on talking to her anytime soon, NO it is NOT because she is busy with band, YES i AM cutting her out of my life, YES it DOES make me feel bad, YES it DOES hurt a bit, YES i DO almost hate her just a bit, YES she IS being a jerk, YES i DO wish i could slap her, YES the fight IS causing me a lot of stress, NO i did NOT think we were going to stop being friends anytime soon, YES i HAVE written many angry poems about her, NO i am NOT going to post them here or anywhere because YES they DO hurt and it DID hurt to have to write them in the first place, NO im NOT going to talk to her about it, YES i HAVE given up on her completely, YES i DO pray for her every night, NO there has NOT been any more improvement, YES she DOES curse now, YES she DOES have a boyfriend, YES she DOES think church, and therefore God, is a waste of ther time, YES i DO miss joking around and being happy all the time, but NO im NOT gonna start again just yet, YES i DO think im taking this seriously, and YES i DO think its the right thing to do, YES it IS sad that we were once such good friends and now i cant stand her, NO i do NOT regret what i said, YES i WAS telling the truth, and YES she DOES need to get over whatever phase shes going through, YES i DID say she wasnt ready for high school, and YES i DID mean it, and YES i still DO mean it, NO i do NOT think it is neccessary for someone to change when starting high school, and YES it IS possible to still be the same person, YES i DO think she is being immature, and YES i DO blame her entirely, YES i COULD try more to help her, and YES i COULD tell her why im so mad at her, but NO i will NOT, YES she DOES deserve this, and NO i will NOT delete any part of this post, NO i do NOT care who reads it either!!
i really wish i could say that i overreacted and be friends with her again, but i just cant because i know its not true...i was thinking about the fight a few days ago and i realized that we may never make up, and i felt really bad, but i accepted it...sure, im not as exciting as i was before, but ive just mellowed out a bit...you cant tell me at least a few people arent just a bit relieved...i regret nothing, its the philosophy that i live by, and so i dont regret telling megan the truth a few weeks back...i dont regret inviting her to my party way back when either, and im going to honor what i said, so she IS still invited, but only because i dont go back on my word without a really good reason, and i dont see the fact that we're fighting to be that good of a reason...she doesnt have to come, and she probably wont, but i dont want people saying that i never tried to help her out, because i did...oh, and she can say she loves her life right now as much as she wants, but i know she has to feel at least a wee bit bad that her former best friend practically hates her (i dont though, because hate is a strong word)...
so yeah, i dont care if she reads this, and i really dont care if anyone else reads it either, but its good to get it off my chest...
Friday, May 1, 2009
Nothing
yep...another post about nothing...dont worry, it wont be as bad as the last one!!
so yeah, today i got the details for my english "project"...its not really MY project, cuz the whole class is participating in it...we're doing this courtroom kinda thing to put Brutus and Cassius from Julius Caesar on trial for murdering Caesar...i have to be a juror, which is SO not gonna be fun...
ive made a few new videos...one is of my trip to disney world, and the other is for a history project in which i had to create a piece of propaganda for WWII...here they are:
yeah...i got a 100 on the history project, so that was cool...the first time i ever got a 100 on a project in novotnys class!! woo!!
the past few weeks have been kinda boring and eneventful...if anything important ever DOES happen (not that often), its not like i have anyone to tell about it...no offense to some of you guys, but there are some things that i just cant talk to middle-schoolers about...and normally i would call/text/facebook message megan, but as of a couple weeks ago, im unsure of our status...she hasnt answered me about that one post yet, so i can only assume that shes chosen the worse of the 2 choices...not that anyone would know what that is, since i specifically said that it was a post meant only for megan, but whatever...
so yeah, one of the things that HAS happened over the past couple weeks is that nicki and richard are in town...notice i referred to that as neither an exciting nor good thing...she has a gift for making me want to slap her, much like veronica...in fact, its worse when theyre in the same room and are conspiring against me!! so yeah, anyone want 2 sisters and a "brother-in-law"?? you can have mine!!
so umm yeah, i might as well go, since theres really nothing to write about because nothing exciting has happened other that realizing that i have a gift for improv...so yeah, ima go now...
so yeah, today i got the details for my english "project"...its not really MY project, cuz the whole class is participating in it...we're doing this courtroom kinda thing to put Brutus and Cassius from Julius Caesar on trial for murdering Caesar...i have to be a juror, which is SO not gonna be fun...
ive made a few new videos...one is of my trip to disney world, and the other is for a history project in which i had to create a piece of propaganda for WWII...here they are:
yeah...i got a 100 on the history project, so that was cool...the first time i ever got a 100 on a project in novotnys class!! woo!!
the past few weeks have been kinda boring and eneventful...if anything important ever DOES happen (not that often), its not like i have anyone to tell about it...no offense to some of you guys, but there are some things that i just cant talk to middle-schoolers about...and normally i would call/text/facebook message megan, but as of a couple weeks ago, im unsure of our status...she hasnt answered me about that one post yet, so i can only assume that shes chosen the worse of the 2 choices...not that anyone would know what that is, since i specifically said that it was a post meant only for megan, but whatever...
so yeah, one of the things that HAS happened over the past couple weeks is that nicki and richard are in town...notice i referred to that as neither an exciting nor good thing...she has a gift for making me want to slap her, much like veronica...in fact, its worse when theyre in the same room and are conspiring against me!! so yeah, anyone want 2 sisters and a "brother-in-law"?? you can have mine!!
so umm yeah, i might as well go, since theres really nothing to write about because nothing exciting has happened other that realizing that i have a gift for improv...so yeah, ima go now...
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