Sunday, November 2, 2008

high school experiment

isnt it funny how something as simple as a new school can change someone so drastically that they're hardly even recognizable as the same person anymore?? well, its not exactly funny an the "ha ha" sense, but its kinda wierd...did i change when i started high school?? was i just too absorbed in what was happening that i couldnt see how far id come from what i was like even a month before?? i dont know, but ive been conducting a little "experiment" if you will about how long it takes a certain test subject to change after starting high school and also how long it takes said test subject to figure it out...to protect this persons privacy (though they dont even know im using them for my little "experiment"), well call the test subject "ts"...so lets start from the beginning: before the start of the school year, ts was a devout christian, they could care less about people of the opposite gender (at least, they weren't insane about it), and they were willing to stay up until the wee hours of the morning doing school work to avoid failing...seems like ts has a pretty good head on their shoulders, right?? well that all pretty much stopped after the first month of school...now: ts basically refuses to come to church, with excuses ready for anyone who tries to question ts's motives...ts has become "boy-crazy" (i say boy, but that doesn't neccessarily mean ts is a girl...i mean, girl-crazy sounds dumb), talking about that certain someone ALL THE TIME, making it virtually unbearable to talk to them...and as for ts's schoolwork?? well, they may be getting a's, but its not because they're faithfully completing their homework every night...more like their copying down answers from the first source they can find, or not even doing the assignments at all!! its a wonder how ts's teachers dont catch that!! now, whats sad is that this person is still (as far as i know) oblivious to all of this, though most of the people they used to associate with have been talking and we all agree that something's changed...wouldn't you agree, even without knowing ts?? sadly, though, nobody seems to really care but myself...maybe because im so wrapped up in everything thats going on around me instead of just whats happening in my life?? i dont know, but something has to be done...we cant just let all these poor freshmen enter high school as themselves and come out as completely different people!! i mean, sure we all change throughout school, but wouldnt it be better to change in a positive way?? growth is always better than straight-up change in my opinion, so shouldn't we be growing instead of changing?? of course, i cant say that ts is the only person whos changed throughout this "experiment"...ive also kinda been testing myself to see how long it would take me to snap and tell this person off for straying away from the person they were before...i mean, i know its their choice, but come on!! am i supposed to just sit back and let this happen!!?? well, thanks for letting me just get that off my chest...its really been bugging me...a lot...oh, and if ts happens to see this and recognizes it as themself, id just like to say sorry, but its true; i cant deny it...sorry

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